I have lived for a long while. Sometime it seemed like eternity. I have been hurt many many times. I also know that I have depression, PTSD and Avoidant Personality Disorder. This means that sometime depression will blind me and I will not see what really is there. Also by suffering from APD, I’m very sensitive to rejection. I’m trying my best to fight this disorder. So sometime I have to take a step back to see where I stand.

This time what I saw on all what is going on in here lately is this:

If I have a bad cut on my arm and I bang it somewhere, ouch! It will make me stop. Maybe it will start to bleed again. Maybe I will have to change the bandage. I will have to try to take better care of it if I want this cut to heal.

For me this is what happened here. Words were said that have hurt me and I felt rejection. But nobody hurt me. It is the words that have hit my wounds inside. The wounds were already there a long time before these words were said. It is nobody’s fault.

I was hurt, I took a step back and now I have return.

I am here again to help you if I can.

Thank you to all who have missed me. I love you all!
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