i think you can find both in the same person. you may have to explore many ppl to find the right match for u but i believe it's out there waiting for you. don't feel as tho you need to rush this. try to be content where you are. if it's meant to be, and i think it is, it will happen. get acquainted with ppl with the same interests as yours...then weed out the losers.  don't settle for "seconds".
BTW i liked the way you worded your feelings. 
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