yeah vent it all out i feel for u cuz it sounds like u feel so alone. well ive been at both ends of the spectrum with ed & my weight & i have always felt like im worthless unless i look a certain way. its really sad. is there anyone for u who is a close trustworthy helpful person. i know those are hard to come by u seem to be crying out 4 help & that can be so messed up if ur around mind game controlling people who obviously need help too. yeah & all the way back to school years there are teachers who would rather show off in front of the girllies & like they made comments at my expense in front of the whole class askin me if im losin weight by throwin up instead of pulling me to the side & talking with me. hits close to home lots of built up anger dont let anyone say or do anything to get in your way