So I tried going to see a therapist and its really expensive and my insurance really doesn't cover all that much. It seems like I'm getting cut off from the little help that I seek and I just keep sinking further and further. I tried talking to my family to see if maybe they would offer some help but instead they just said that I was seeking attention and needed to knock it off.. it gets harder and harder everyday and at this point I would settle for some kind words or just being genuinely nice without wanting something back. I'm running on fumes so to speak and the days just seem longer and I keep getting more and more disappointed. To top it all off I had to beg for a ride to the emergency room yesterday when I got hurt working on my car and I felt like I was such a bother and making their life difficult. I'm just so very tired and I feel myself getting more and more restless and even a bit short with people. Thanks for listening and any responses would be appreciated. Thanks for the help.