You know what frightens me most is that as I have gotten older and having to live with these feelings is that there is no end to it. I am in my 50s and its never ending. I want some peace in my life days that I can feel ok but they are less and less now and I am not young anymore before I could say to myself its only a phase you will come out of it but those ok days are less in fact have not had any this last year. I went to see T yesterday my 2nd session but all I could see her doing was looking at the clock. I dont know what I will get from it because even while I am down its like while I am trying to express myself the logical part of me is telling me. that its the way I think and feel that makes me feel like I do so how do I deal with that. This site is good because you get to hear how others are dealing with stuff. But its also scary its a life time things. Depression doesnt go away we all try to deal with it as best we could but it still overwelms us. What to do I have no answer all I know is I am tired and worn out emotionally and sick of crying. I am sorryfor venting all this here but this morning I feel dreadful I feel worn down and tired I'd like to just go back to bed I am so cold but I have to go to work. And most of all I am sick of bursting into tears all the time. If anyone has a solution let me know.