ahhh, its okay to reach out even if you are going through some troubling times of your own. I helped my good friend through many relationships (losses in his world), even when I was/am going through some deeply scarring times. If you help another, it may speed your own healing. ^_^ I felt the same way with the passing of one of my grandma's. I felt like I knew something was wrong, yet I kept it to myself. when the time came, I felt terrible. Its was the second grandmother that I lost, and with both I felt as if I could have prevented it. Sadly, there is no way that I could have prevented either deaths, no matter how I would have gone about it. I am very sorry for your loss, and I hope that you may find peace in life. You deserve the best, so give yourself the best. ^_^
Warm wishes,
-Vicious