Hello everyone, My name is Chris and I'm kind of lost. I just really need to talk, and I don't think talking to a person face to face is quite right just yet.

The reason I am posting here is because of the girl in my Avatar. That's my fiancee, my blushing bride to be...

She has PCOS, and I only within the last couple months learned that she has been having some major problems. Before I came into her life she used to cut herself and hit herself with a hammer. She always said it's like it's not her, but she remembers doing it. she also hits her head on things and hits herself with her hands. I have only seen this twice, but you have no idea how scary it is. She will go from completely rambunctious and excited, to looking like she is mentally deficient. She stares blankly at things and can't really speak, and she fidgets and sometimes rocks back and forth.. she also hits her head hard on things and hits herself in the head, and despite all I do, I can't help her except just being there. The hardest part is that we think she might be pregnant. We are both really worried about how she's going to be able to carry a child in this state. We can't abort a child, and it would be a miracle to us because she had PCOS and she is supposed to have problems with fertility due to cists on her ovaries. She has many other symptoms which make me wonder if maybe it is Bipolar. including: Mood swings (major ones, from extremely happy and giddy to downright depressed and angry). Headaches and other body aches almost all the time. Trouble with vision. Trouble organizing her thoughts and words most of the time. and then of course there are extreme feelings of guilt in getting me involved, a lack of wanting to be with her family (who aren't very supportive anyways, so that may be excused) This is not just something related to stress, this is a medical condition... We need help, and I'm not sure where to go.. She doesn't want her family, or my father to get involved, but she has consented me to talk with my Mother about it, so I will see where that goes on Thursday.

Thanks for listening, and thank you for any advice or information you can give. I want to fight this thing, and I'll be damned if I lose the only person I could ever love.

Chris