Splitimage ,I have never been over weight,I am underweight,but I get picked on for that too.Especially as a child,was called such names .I think we all have something we don't like about ourselves.Personally,I am not into how someone 'appears' I never have based my thinking off that.I believe CSA indeed creates these body image issues.So much is connected to our rearing and the images the media puts out there flashing before our eyes.It really hurt to hear the name you called yourself.I think there is so much more to us than the physical.I understand your health concerns and think if you want to lose weight it should be to feel better physically.For health,not image.I think you will walk through alot of thoughts and feelings as you focus on your weight loss.Better to focus on eating healthy,having a bit of physical activity...doing things like getting the pretty hair cut is a good move.So is dressing nice.You will always be you irregardless of the physical.So I just think focus on learning to challenge your thinking ....if you speak mean to you ...correct it and be loving.....I hope as you focus on your health ,you also focus on nurturing self love.~W~