Triggers are a pain in the but!!

Some co-workers of someone that caused me....or better put was "accomplice to" the difficulties I had... (the problems that caused my meltdown at the beginning of this year....the problems I am still struggling to recover from) came into my work today and one in particular reminded me so much of the horrible debilitating feelings I had when this all started.

10 months....trying to stop my head and the emotions racing around in there...all back in a flash. My heart is pounding....my hands are shaking. I feel like I am back in that place.....I don't want the be there. I know better. My life is good....crap....*&$@%^#!!!

And I'm at work. I don't want to cry. If anyone asks me how I am...I will loose my composure. I need to be strong....my eyes are filling up.....now what????