muser  , it sounds almost like PTSD. when mine is triggered i have the same symptoms as you are having.
a very good friend once told me, whatever someone says about me is none of my business!!! i said WHAT???? what that means is you know the struggle you had, got help, and now ok until they triggered you. you know the real truth so their malicious gossip(shame on them! may it never happen to them!) is all that's important. i'm so glad u have been feeling better. hope you remember how far u've come rather than paying attention to their unkindness.
glad u posted. i hope we help in some way.
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