2b1, Hi, I'm so sorry you feel pushed away just when you're ready to reach out. Major bummer, I know. Nothing is more frustrating than to gather yourself up, (big courage, good work!) and reach out, only to be denied that which you so desperately need: a listening compassionate ear. Geez. Used to make me so mad I'd go off on the person I'd reached out to. Yelling, screaming, calling them names like "fair weather friend"to say the least....

I felt like I only had one shot at asking (energy wise) and to have that not work, OOOwwwww felt so BAD. I would crawl back into my hole fuming, disgusted with everything. So alone....

I discovered, much to my dismay, that I also had to consider the "who has something to give" aspect. Lotsa folks have lotsa reasons to not go there with us. Whooo boy, oh great, now I have to get picky about who I ask for help, no yellow pages on this on back then... But, now is now. We, at the very least, have this site!!! Etherial net hugs are better than no hugs, huh?

My first acupuncturist said to me,"When you feel like you're going to explode, expand around it". Tricky, tricky tricky, but possible. I hold you in my heart and wish you well.