When I finally came to grips with my BPD it was a turning point in my therapy. For the longest time I knew I had it and thought I was accepting of it but nope I was in denial (not just a river in Egypt). I finally realized yes I do have a personality disorder but it's not who I am. Its just a part of me. I take a bit longer to get on with someone and then run the risk of putting them up on a pedestal just to knock them off a couple of days later. My main thing is the drastic mood swings and I'm not bipolar because they aren't severe enough for that just annoying enough that I find myself being happy then sad then happy and the cycle continues much through the day. I have a boyfriend now (Rex) that I am trying very hard to appear normal around because we were friends first and I know when I start to wig out he freaks and runs so I'm trying hard to maintain healthy boundaries. One of them is not calling him everyday. I let him call me now and believe me that is a hard one for me. I want to talk to him all the time and have found that when I call him we don't talk nearly as long as when he calls me. Any way I hope that you don't think that this is a forever thing. You can "outgrow" this and learn new behaviors so you end up with borderline tendencies.

Jbug