Thank you all for your comments and thanks for listening. I really need to write everything down and tell people even if I don't know them, it really helps me to calm myself down so I can focus on helping Kara.

She hasn't seen a psychiatrist or a doctor yet, but I am working on that. I'm not sure exactly what is available in my area but I am checking it out. It is hard for us both because she doesn't want my Dad, or her parents to know (her parents are very critical of her our relationship, and my Dad doesn't approve of us being together, which is always hard) She trusts my Mom more than her own, and she has always been very helpful and supportive of our feelings and our relationship... she also has a medical background, so that helps... I think that talking to her is the first step, but finding time to is not an easy task (she works opposite shifts to me) I usually get to see Kara as she's leaving the clinic she works at, before I head in for work, but I never get chance to see my mother, but I have arranged to take her out for lunch on Thursday (she knows that there's something I need to tell her) so we'll see what happens. As to me running off, I know that there is nothing that is her fault, and that she can't help doing the things she does. I love her so much, and I know that I need her in my life, disabled or not. The woman I fell in love with is still there, but there is this other person driving her to insanity, and it tears me apart to see her like she is. If I ever lost her, I don't know what I'd do.

I'll keep you posted on whatever happens,
It's really nice being able to talk

Chris