Just wanted to apologize to everyone for kind of dropping the ball here. Be assured that every single post is read, and I think and care about all of you. Just lately... I've had a hard time responding anywhere near as much as I want to. Sometimes responses even get written, then deleted because... oh I don't know, they seem so... something. Or nothing. Been overwhelmed with issues IRL, very depressed, and it just feels like everything I touch is a disaster and insufficient to the issue at hand.

Apologies to our forum newbies... Haven't kept up with the greetings there either, and feel very guilty about it. Sorry it's so lame, but would it be ok to just to everyone new since I've kind of fallen off in participation?

Yes, I do manage some posts, even to joke (therapy-worthy topic in itself, but it's auto-response even in stress), but sorry to say I'm pretty trapped in my own head atm, and feel very guilty about it. Not posting much -- (except one spot where apologies are in order as well for driving everyone around the bend with my litanies of lament). Even what is posted is restrained... just can't help it. Still, I'm totally an isolator by nature and the fact of even being able to reach out here at all is a testament to what wonderful people you all are...

Just feel so bad. Don't want anyone to think that it's lack of caring. It's definitely not.