I am so so sorry for what happened to you when you was a child ...

Do you have a Therapist ? If not I strongly urge you to get in contact with one as they can really help with all your problems.

We are not allowed to diagnose here as we are not Drs and are not qualified to do so sweetheart.

However we can listen to you if you need to talk, but again I really think you need to see a Therapist as they will know what to say to you.

IF you go to your Drs they can refer you to one.