Hi, LittleForgetMeNot!

• Hatred
• Sadness
• Loneliness

Of those three, loneliness may be the easiest -- relatively speaking -- to address.

What concerns me is the above combination has led you to dark thoughts. I hope your mind and heart are clear enough to reach out for assistance, even if that means phoning some help line to talk to a flesh-and-blood person.

Regardless, please keep posting. Let us know how you are doing.