Dear, I can only third and fourth the above. Please see someone who is a professional who can see and talk to you in person as soon as possible. That is a must when it comes to diagnosis. even professionals can't do that ethically simply from a post. To really help you, they have to see you, preferrably more than once. do you feel like you are going to hurt yourself soon? If you feel very unsafe, dear, please, go to an emergency room and tell them, or call a close friend to be with you until the crisis passes, because it probably will after a few hours. but DO NOT BE ALONE, and you have to have help!!!!!!!!!! MANY HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGs