I'm not at all mad just working through this but, people have told me through psychcentral....don't you think you were just two kids exploring sexually?....well, if I knew the answer to that I don't think I would be having problems. And if it was my choice, and it wasn't invasive maybe I wouldnt care. And if I did not have a reaction to it years later...that happened abrubtly,....then maybe I wouldn't care. If I was the one who initiated what happened when I was little and I did not cry or feel scared when it happened...then maybe I could go with that thought. YES! I would love to think, we were just two kids exploring...when i was little...but, I can't think that because I cannot remember that. I only remember that I did not want to "explore." I was just trying to sleep. So, apparently, what happened to me will always be minimized. although, it is randomly effecting me years later...

its just two kids exploring right?

although, now its hard to seperate violation from sex.

its just two kids exploring right?

yeah.
this stinks?