Anxiety or depression? Where does this go?

I am lonely. I feel like I have no where to go. I am still having trouble leaving the house.

I posted on PtSD and no one wrote back. I feel like an idiot.

I was never like this.

It has been 1 year since I became this way. ONE YEAR. I can't gain weight. I can't drive - ok, once in 2 weeks.

I feel like I am going nuts. All of this was caused by that stupid jerk and it won't go away.

I don't know how to rejuvenate myself.

The holidays have been screwed up since we moved. We are going to my sister's boyfriend's house. I don't want to go there.

I have been trying to write a paper for 2 weeks. It is taking FOREVER. I used to be able to write a paper like this in 2 days. I am afraid I won't finish.

I am scared. I don't know how to solve this one. It's like I pushed way too hard for a year and a half and didn't know I was putting myself at risk for any kind of mental health problem. I should have.

My day is like this: make myself get up, eat, go back to bed.

Nightmare.