Thanks everyone!...I saw my T today and the wall came crashing down...I was full of rage at first but then I cried and I mean cried...I heard what Wisewoman and Sky said in my head and the wall crumbled...

Short version, I am staying with my current T and today is the first day in eight weeks I was able to allow her near me without freaking out!...

THANK-YOU!...Tay