NO DOCTOR, No Medicine, no treatment has helped me from overwhelming anxiety and I’ve seen many doctors and tried many medicines. I went to my first psychiatrist at 15 years old.

I’ve suffered for over 45 years, but now that I am 60 years old it is worse than ever and no one can point me straight. This morning (Saturday) I went to work two hours early which is my routine practice and suffered an over whelming panic attack and fear of attempting to do my job. I quickly called in sick, tried to drive home, got lost driving home. Then, I made calls for help, and got none. As long as I was not “at-risk” to myself or others, they said, sleep on it and make my own determination on Monday.

I live alone. Little family support and they live 1000’s miles away. No Friends. I have two cats, they love me but I can no longer take care of them. I can not leave the house unless I have to do so. I have zero motivation and live in a dirty apartment with roaches. Nothing bring my pleasure. Can’t even watch a movie or listen to music. I have several doctors and I’m going down hill fast. My sister says to think positive. My last doctor’s visit, he said find assertiveness training. On the phone I was told to discover mindfulness. I was sent to be evaluated for electro-shock therapy, and the doctor said it would not help me.

I was asked to try group therapy. I said, GREAT! But my work schedule is afternoons and nights, with only Fridays and Sundays off, and there are no groups that can fit my schedule.

I’m 60 years old, overweight and have a bad leg. Walk with a limp and pain. I did start to walk a circle around my apartment bldg. It was hard and did it for about three months. But eventually gave it up. I should try to do that again. I’m uncomfortable leaving my apartment. Going to the store for food is something I have to do. I have to get food for me and the cats. A year ago, i went to a movie on Thanksgiving.