Welcome to PC mabuhay55. Sorry you've been suffering for so long. There's a natural supplement called Gaba - another member here uses it and it's good for anxiety. Another thing that helps with anxiety and panic disorders, is practicing acceptance. I hope I can explain this well. So far you've lived 45 yrs and you're still here thank God but the anxiety and panic hasn't harmed you. Some suffers find relief if they imagine the worst panic attack - if you can survive that, then you can survive anything.

It's natural to fear the panic as if it has a mind of it's own and it's feels like that sometimes. When you're having the attack you feel out of control - the anxiety and fear is running you. If you try to observe and accept the fear and panic - let it come - this can reduce the fear. The fear depends on you feeling afraid. I wanted to mention, I used to suffer from panic attacks as a child but suffered in silence, so I know what they feel like. I empathize with your situation. Here's a couple links to look at:

www.thehealthcenter.info/articles/aware.htm

http://www.suite101.com/content/natu...vs-gaba-a59854