Wow...i have always felt similar to you...i was a middle child with two beautiful sisters...people let me know early in life how ugly i was...i know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder...i just wish the rest of the world knew it too...you got a boyfriend... A step ahead of me...at least he's telling you that he loves you...guys would tell me at least you got a good heart...how does that really make me feel...you already know...appreciate your own conception of beauty, not the world's...i'm the one to talk hu?...i am a work in progress...good luck in the relationship