Thanks Andie. It feels like PSTD from what I've read. I don't have a T. The few times I've had what I call an "event" I started the process but never followed through. The only time I saw a therapist was briefly when I was divorcing and it was more for him than me. If I had given it more time it may have been helpful but I found her to be not much more than a cheerleader. When I had a sit down with the one he was seeing she had a lot more on the ball and actually supported my decision to leave.

I know therapy would be beneficial. There are issues there that are always just below the surface that manage to stick their ugly heads out when they (I) get riled up. I seem to keep it tampered down but if someone takes an interest I get too emotional. It's like if there is a crack in the dam I wind up with a flood of emotion. It becomes totally inappropriate. The smart thing to do is start the process when I'm in a good frame of mind.