I know it's ok, but....I don't know, it just seems to get worse as I ask for more help. Pretending that everything is ok is hard, but it's easier than having people worry and think I'm a fake and try to "help me" in ways that just make it worse. I hate feeling like a burden to my family, like something else that they have to deal with, on top of 4 other kids, juggling bills, work, and everything else that causes them stress. I feel so guilty, for pretending to be happy, and then I feel guilty when I ask for help. I just want it all to go away.