conklinca... i agree with you on a lot of those points... its just that after we had that argument and he said those things and i said that i was uncomfortable with those people... i eventually agreed and went with him... at which point a couple other people followed because they are our primary friends, at which point, he left again.... so i dunno. i didn't want to go down there with him, but i did, and then he left.... so... i dunno.

and Sam, thank you for the support, i appreciate it a lot. the things you said made sense too... but i don't know... i can't let go of him at all. i wouldn't be able to find anyone else just cuz of my state of mind.

"Sometimes it takes us to the bottom of our misery to understand the truth..."
~Gustav Havel - existentialist