madisgram

This is an interesting perspective, for me, I do not think anhedonia is a fear of pleasure, my experience as someone who is getting out of depression, it really is a lack of feeling, the best i could do was remember i enjoyed something, but that was not enough to tend to my business, pay bills, etc. I lived for my business and no amount of will power or pills could open me up to my joys. It is gone.

Example:

last fall I went for a walk along the river, the air was perfect, hint of fallen leaves creating aromatherapy, most leaves on trees with great color, blue sky, the river clear mountain fed river green/blue, the grass was still green, the heat of the sun was perfect, I was with a friend.

Normally as a nature person i would be 'smitten' with the rare perfect day in my city, trying to soak up every color, scent etc but I was just an outsider and did not feel any conection to the pleasure that would normally be sparked with such a picture perfect day.
today is sky is blue and the temp is 24 F, wish I was in Florida, but as we say here even when it is -40, at least the sun is shining. (just an aside as I looked up your information madisgram)

If you watch the link below for the first 7 minutes or more if you have time there is a great defintion of depression and anhedonia. The entire lecture is full of information and the professor is a great speaker.



My hope is that what I remembered that brought joy is still there and will be there when I am healed.
I am starting somedays to find my joy of learning, just my memory and my energy are not up to the task.

I make a point to do as much as I can within my energy levels, to honor what is going on for me each day. I am now up to 5 hours a day. Even if i do not enjoy the activity.
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