I think that this is something that people have to deal w/ on a continuous basis.... trying to reach out for help, hoping someone will be there....and if they're not everything seems to fall apart. and no, you're right, it's not okay. I'm sorry that whoever you asked for help wasn't there for you... but don't let one person or even several people dictate how good or bad you're doing.... not everyone is like that. There ARE people out there who want to listen, who care, who can help.... the forums here are a wonderful example of that. I know it's frustrating though... can you try someome else??? sometimes people just don't "get it"... I do find though that if someone says they're busy I tend not to push or if they don't get it right away or "guess" what's up I associate all of that w/ them not being there for me.. but my point is maybe try being more specific to that you need help and why and w/ what (I'm just suggesting...)? (((hugs))) sorry things are so frustrating for you...