Yes, he knows. He has encouraged me to get help regarding this. My husband has been abusive for years, but really bad since my first hospitalization five years ago. However, if I confront my husband, he get's really mean. In fact, my doctors have no emergency contact person because they know that if they express concern to my husband, he will just take it out on me. They literally have nobody to call when they are worried about my suicidal thoughts.

Like I always say...my mental health plus environment equals the perfect storm of destruction!