There is something fundamentally wrong with someones thinking when they say in response to abuse...yeah but i love him.That's not OK, no one has the right to put their hands on you in anger.There are only two courses of action for escaping and abusive situation, and it's your choice to make. One is to call a crisis help line for people in abusive relationships, and get the heck out of there. The line could help you find a shelter, funding, counciling, and helping you find a new place to live with your children. The other option is staying with your husband and attending marriage counciling. If he loves you, he would not want to hit you, and i am sure he doesn't want to hit you, but there is something wrong with him if he is hitting you. If you want to work it out, then couples counciling is the way to do it, they can help him with his own issues that lead to him being violent. if your willing to stay with him, then he should be willing to try to change. I think after that's more important at the moment then your depression to be honest, because depression itself wont kill you...but being in an abusive relationship might.