yeah earlier in the month i had a couple of times where i thought about crack & had the urge to smoke some. i always think into the next day cuz the sun will come up & how hopeless i would feel if i did it & then if i do it it starts the whole binge thing over again. how that stuff just about ruined my life not to mention the booze the dark places i went with all of it thats why i say im so thankful for Gods grace love & mercy Hes shown me thru all of my screwed up choices not big on aa or na but in the biginning of sobriety i had to have it to stay clean. now i rely on God Jesus & His flawless Word