I used to be on this board a while back but I think ppl lost all hope on me My sessions ended with him in September but we had phone contact since. He agreed to meet me outside... and have coffee. The physical stuff only ever happened in sessions. I really miss him BUT want him out of my head. I am seeing a new t but it isnt helping that much. I have explained everything to her but nothing she says really helps me.

I cant accept it was abuse but feel that until i do i wont start on road to recovery

BTW I have no plans on seeing him. So far I have resisted but its getting harder