I feel like i am in a room with no air i am struggling to breathe. How do i make the pain go away. Everyday i pray thats it different and i always fail when i cant handle the situation. I been on the road of recovery and stayed there for awhile yet somehow i fell back into my destructive ways. I feel numb i feel nothing i feel like i am not here. My thoughts race with all these un answered questions and my judgement is cloudy. What happened to the girl that use to smile and was happy all the time or was i putting on a show this entire time. how is it that i have everything but still feel as if i have nothing. I hurt all the time now has it finally caught up to me. I dont even know what to do anymore. Im at war with myself and im losing. Yes i have a T but yet i feel like she doesnt truly understand has anyone felt like that like they agree to agree when you know they dont understand i dnt know maybe its just me. I just needed to vent. :sighs: