To everybody, I was kind of thinking about my post, and I apologize, as the video is probably meant for people who are not aware that such abuse exists, and is somewhat inappropriate for a forum like this where most people have experienced some kind of abuse first hand.

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Hi Rainbow,

I think the main point is to spread awareness, though maybe it's also kind of like a fad in some ways, I guess..

Thank you for your reply. I'm not in counseling or therapy or anything.. I'm sure there are a lot of people who care about me and would listen to me without judging, but I don't feel like I should tell them. I keep online journals so that I won't feel the need to tell people. I feel like I can't do that to them, that even if they are willing to help, I don't want to make them. It might also be disturbing or maybe slightly traumatizing to know... I don't know what I'd feel worse about; someone finding out about me, or finding out that someone I know is having problems that I don't know about and that they're keeping a secret.

I was thinking about my own child abuse earlier. It wasn't that harsh or cruel, but yes, it has affected me. I suppose my coping skills aren't that great, and I really admire people who have gone through worse and can still deal with life. I also imagined that maybe my dad was also crying every time he hit me in order to try to teach me a lesson, and that made me cry a lot more.