Hi Rainbow ~ Wow - talk about dreams!!! You sure had some dillys! My dreams were always the same - I was always caught in a tornado at my parents' house. That made sense, since my home life was all about my parents physical and verbal fights. They were both alcoholics, and when they were drunk, they would say the most horrid things to each other, and of course that led to the physical fights.

I got married right out of high school, which I know now was just to get out of the house. I married an extremely controlling man ~ which I didn't see when we were dating. After we got married, it was all HIS money (I worked too) and I had to account for every dime. He could spend all he wanted tho. I had to account for every where I went too - if I went to my parents to visit - he called to make sure I was there. If I was late coming home, I had to be sure and account for where I'd been. I was "stupid," ignorant, and many many names I cannot mention here. This went on for 26 years. Why didn't I leave? Because he said he'd take my children and I'd never see them again ~ so I waited until the youngest was 18 - and then divorced him. And he was INFURIATED! I thought he'd kill me.

He stalked me, called me all hours of the night, bought a house very near mine to keep an eye on me. So I updated my house, and sold it - and moved to another town! lol I've never SEEN him so mad!!! He called me everything but --- well, he called me everything.

I could write a book on things he did to me throughout the years - but I think you get the picture. I cringe when I think of all the years I gave up for that jerk - but 8 yrs after the divorce, I married a wonderful man - who unfortunately passed away a year later.

But I've got my self-esteem back and the darkness is gone. Thanks for allowing me to share. Hugs, Lee