I think I'll see her Wed afternoon. It has sort of come up as a topic, but often it is clouded by depression. It's only when I'm fairly stable, that I can look at myseld objectively and realise that even thought I'm not depressed, I still have this vast emptiness.

Therapy can be a bit overwhelming for me - for once I feel someone is listening to me. I truely believe T cares for me, and there aren't many of those people in my life. It's something I've therefore started to crave. Like I've mentioned on an earlier thread - it's like T is my emotional mom. I do come across as a cow at times, but I'm really soft inside. I'd love for someone to just hold me. My bf does, but I very rarely get emotional. I know it's wrong for a T to get so close to their patients, so I daren't ask her. T and I still have a VERY professional relationship (We've been together for 6 months) but I trust her enough, and she'd be the one person (Other than my bf) I could see holding me, and with a bit of luck opening the flood-gates of my emotions.

I really battle to project my emotions at times, other than ocassionally bursting into tears at home or work - but at T I'm like a closed up book... it is soooooo frustrating