Hi Sepheroth75...so sorry things are so tough for you right now. I know it doesn't fix everything, but being here and getting to know the courageous, loving people that inhabit this little corner of cyberspace has many times been the only place I have felt loved and accepted and understood. As painful as they are, circumstances do not dictate who you are. You are not your illness - you are worthy because you are brave enough to cope even in the toughest times and you have a contribution to make. You are needed, also. It's just that right now, the person or people that need you are not apparent to you yet. When you don't feel strong, lean on the ones here who have strength to share and when you do feel strong, share it with the ones who are feeling lost. Sending you many, many peaceful vibes..