Thanks for the reply Gilead,

Even though it is hard to hear, I'm glad to hear that I am not alone.
It seems that my wife just wants to go out and have fun more and more. I came home friday to her telling me about going out bowling for 5 games during the day. At least she was by herself and she was out during the day and there was no alcohol. Sunday she was gone from 9 to 6 shopping. When she got home she sat on the couch and stayed on the computer until the kids were in bed. Then she called a friend to plan a bowling night without me. Tonight is another night out drinking with married girlfriends. I'm curious to see what time she comes home. I think that all of these friends will not stay past 10. I just hope that she doesn't stop at the local pub to stay later.
She has been losing weight these past few months and has been getting terrific compliments from everyone, none more than me. All of mine are discounted, in fact when she catches me looking at her smiling she either tells me to stop or moves away. She still smiles sometimes. I've had had a peck of a kiss for months and nothing more. She has told me that she would not be here if not for the kids, and my only hope is that she procrastinates making decisions.
She is a master at not letting anyone know what is going on inside of her. She would flip out if I talked to anyone she knows about it. I've tried that once before in the past with disastrous results. (no trust)

Tell me about your relationship if you can. Tell me how old your kids were when she left you? Did you stop loving her? How far did she push away before she left? Describe your ex in more detail if you can?