hi everyone. I am feeling mostly the same today. I am still in bed and don't want to get up... I was diagnosed bipolar and depression about 9 months ago depression and about 2 months ago bipolar. I was hospitalized in august becaue i couldn't deal with it anymore. Itake meds, well i try to, my mom dodesnt let me and it makes me so angry becasue i need them and she doesnt think i do....... i take topamax.. a mood stablaizer i take that one everyday i dont care if she doesnt let me.. i take klonopin only when i really need to and i take cymblata. i just found out my boyfriend of four years has been cheating on me and when i found out i didnt even get mad i didnt really even say anything instead he broke up with me and has been ignoring me since and wont even talk to me... hes been emotionally abusing me for so long and its so horrible, he gets mad at me when i cry and i think he hates me becasue i am bipolar and depressed... ugh i wish everything was better. i also have an eating disorder and feel guilty everytime i eat. i dont want to eat today becasue i feel like i ate to much yesterday... sorry for rambling on...i just needed to vent becasue i feel like everyone in my life is sick of it already.......
thanks for listening (((((hugs)))))