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Originally Posted by treehouse
I did see T today and before I left we talked about how my job this week would be to keep the past and the present separated. And if it gets messy and confusing, I should call or e-mail. And I will, but it's not just the separation I'm having trouble with. I'm having trouble forgiving/understanding the child me.
I just want SO badly to basically always feel okay. I know life will have ups and downs, and that's fine...but I almost don't think I can STAND these out of the blue triggers anymore. I really can not stand it. I want it to stop SOOOOO badly, and it's frustrating that after all of this work in therapy, a trigger can come out of nowhere like this and affect me SO deeply.
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Tree you are doing the right thing by taking care of yourself
Everyone goes through there ups and downs I know I do
There are some weeks where I sit in the support room for chat as I feel really low and I'm constantly posting SOS calls in the forums. Ican relate to the feeling like your not contributing as I carrry that on my shoulders at times to. But think of it this way... Just your post alone can help people even if you think you are the only one getting help.
I underlined the two sentences you wrote as they rang out to me loud and clear. It's like you took the thoughts and words out of my head. It's something I will be exploring in therapy and I hope you can do the same. Sending you comforting thoughts and lots of hugs
PS - your post helped me 'grow' a little more. Thank you