Thy just printing out some of your posts here and giving them to her to read if you don't feel like you can describe what's going on with you, widge. I know that writing these things is a world away from actually saying them to a flesh and blood person. I have felt like someone clmaps my mouth closed sometimes (rare as that experience can be). So go ahead and print these or even write down a summary of them if you want. don't depend on just telling her if you feel this way. HUUUUUGGGGSSSSS dear.