I have so much work to do right now and I just don't know where to start... I feel that I am not able to think, or at least not as much as I would like to. I feel irritated. I feel hopelessly demotivated and somehow down.

I should be grateful that I am at school, but at this moment it's all whatever... it only means I will have to get up in the morning for next 40 years.

/end rant.

I am still trying to push myself to do what I gotta, because... well, I wanna stay in school for time being and don't want to screw up.