I can't help but to dread that christmas is coming soon.I live at my grandparents and I just found out that they are leaving during christmas week (Grandma is getting surgery for breast cancer).I really don't want them to leave. My anxiety , depression , and fears heighten when I'm alone for too long .And the only way I coop with that is by cutting my arms and face ,or pulling my hair out.And I'm really afraid of having panick attacks because there is nobody to be with me afterwards.I have no friends who like to be with me.I can't go to my parents because my Step dad hates me to the point of almost hitting me.And my real dad is dead.So I really have no one to be with this year.So if anyone has any ideas on how to keep my anxiety down please tell me.