I am feeling much better about this. I saw him today and we talked almost like nothing happened. It was wierd. Actually he asked me my opinion about world war II (me being from Germany) and it was almost like we never had sex. Strange. In fact I missed these kinds of times just chatting nothing more. But now since we did have sex it still feels wierd to me. As much I try to pretend it didn't happen, it did and I know it he knows it and I just move on. Which is what I plan to do.

I'm 22 and yes my screenname is 21 in German because that is my favorite number lol. and he is 35 and his wife is 40 and they don't have kids (that I know of) plus I saw a picture of her... she's pretty and I only wish the best for her and for him, as much I want to be with him (leave her and come to Germany with me etc.) I know she needs him more than i do. I've come to this because it's not worth it. Yes, I love him, yes I desire to make love to him and Yes I fantasize about him all the time, but thats it just fantasies, nothing more than that.

At this point, all I have to say to them is "Viel Glück"

Thanks to everyone for advice.

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