(((Tree))) Thank you for posting this thread. I too experienced CSA and it's so not fair that it is how many of us have first experienced sexual touch. That's the confusing part about sexual abuse. It doesn't always hurt physically and does sometimes feel good (ugh i feel sick just typing that )

I talked about this with T briefly once . This thread has brought up some unresolved anger on the subject and unresolved feelings. My sexuality and sexual feelings around intimacy is a difficult thing for me to talk about or even accept. I'll be adding this to my list to discuss in therapy.

((tree)) you are not alone. We are here. Keep posting.