sorry you are having a difficult time at the moment

I've been working on this mindset--- maybe it would help you too??

I try to ask myself--"would you agree and allow a little girl to regard herself as gross, dirty and/or bad-- if she came to you and shared her experience with you?".... and my own answer hopefully is-- "No, I would never ever regard or agree to the mindset that being sexually abused in any way makes the little girl dirty or gross or bad". (think of that little girl-- see her eyes and her face-- how could she be dirty or gross?)
It's so easy to get caught up in the "adult" mode and reaction to what happened in the adult memories-- but-- one is better off thinking as an adult WITH REGARDS to a little girl-- not an adult.
does that make sense? (this is what I'm learning with T., but I might not be so good at relaying the lesson)

fins