allme!!! Hope you can feel better soon. Can relate. You know... see if this makes sense to you...I think of this disorder, in its depressive state as being two voices. The one telling lies keeps having a negative and opposite response to any reasonable thing the small voice says, just beating it down till it's hard to believe anything else. But that bully big voice is LYING. Oh how very convincingly logical it seems, but it's not! It's something I'm struggling with now too, you are not alone. The worst I ever had it was before this realization hit, but realizing this now helps some to keep in perspective why this is a disorder. If this can help at all...

AND you dance with your doggie! He's nature.

And you know... the problem of being angry with people does not always ultimately lie with you, ya know? Sometimes people really are jerks! Maybe this is completely inappropriate, but here goes. I LOVE the tv program The IT Crowd. In one episode, one of the characters is trying to encourage a couple of the people to meet some new people despite their skepticism, pointing out that they haven't met everyone, right? One character (in a lovely Irish accent, btw) says, "People. What a bunch of bastards." Cannot even express how I love that line, because I have a really really hard time dealing in the world too. But then I think of all the people here and how supportive and wonderful they are. Loved music, art, pets, comedy, whatever floats one's boat...Definitely helps round out my generally dim view of the world. You are definitely NOT worthless!!!

For example, even just tonight... I've been really struggling lately, right? And your simply mentioning dancing with your doggie brought a smile and a rush of sweetness to my heart -- that is a precious rarity that YOU brought to me. Thank you so much! Not worthless. Not at all.