(((HUGS))) Glad you are makig the effort to get to work. The change of environment will really help you. I'd like to suggest you try and see a T to help you with your feelings. You've been through a lot in your personal life, and still need to come to terms with the depression and bipolar too. There are lots of self-help books out there, and there are coping mechanisms you can learn to help you cope with these symptoms much better