Your careworker does need to know about these thoughts and feelings.
I've never been able to vocalise too much in T, but I have often copied my posts on PC and given them to my T to read.
I'm sorry the comment triggered you - it would have spun me out completely too.
I hope your caseworker is able to help you. Please tell you caseworker everything. You should probably put some thoughts on paper beforehand, as you've been through a WHOLE lot recently - and your caseworker needs to know this all.

I hope things look up for you soon - let us know how the meeting with the caseworker went!