yes i have said before - its not that i want to die its just that i dont want to live anymore - to go in this never ending cycle of despair -so yes i understand.

is the pain you talk of emotional or physical or both? Somtimes i say to myself if my pain were from a broken arm people would see it and see i had a "real" problem - there would also be a time frame i could be told for healing and then i would be ok

With BPD and PTSD or any disorder - timeframes have no meaning - it takes as long as it takes.....

but there can be healing - my old T taught me that - he helped me a lot - he became sick and retired and i miss his commonsense and irreverant approach to psychotherapy.

can you share wiht us what is making you feel this way?

Maybe we can help - or just listen...

as to your family - perhaps they are in denial - if they dont admit its real then its not for them

one of the hardest things is to learn to ignore those words from those that are toxic to us - im constantly trying to learn that

im here and im listeneing if you care to share

P7 (are you on any meds? )

((((3mabx)))) theres a support chat room here andalso if ever im on and you need to talk ....let me know P7